This is my family

    I sure love them a lot!

    This is my husband and me.

    He's pretty cute.

    These are my kids

    They are cool.

    Primary Shout Out

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    This is my shout out to Benji’s primary leaders and teachers. Sunday evening Packer was making a wish with a dandelion so Benji went down the street and found a dandelion so that he could do the same. SO he was super excited to tell me his wishes and they were:

    I wish that families could be together forever.

    I wished that all babies could be born. (that one was precious, he is very aware and understands what has been going on with the miscarriage.)

    I wish that there was no crying.

    And I wish that we could go to church every time.

    He could not quit talking about primary and his teacher and his music leader and all of the stuff that he learned. He really is a sponge right now. He soaks in everything that he can. His preschool teacher also said that he is a great student. Listens, does his work, answers questions. He really is a good kid. We love him.

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    I Remembered my Camera for Benji’s Game!

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    This is Benji’s soccer team. There are 8 kids on the Team and 4 on the field at a time.

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    Here’s Benji chasing after the ball.

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    And here he is watching everyone else – not quite getting in there.

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    High 5’s from Coach Dad!!

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    Water Break!

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    I think he’d rather be doing this than really playing…

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    Packer wanted to get the cameras attention also.

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    Here is number 9 doing a little super hero pose before a kick off.

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    And Benji’s biggest kick of the game was this free kick – he got some air under the ball!

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    He has a smile on his face and says that he is having fun so I guess the fact the he only touches the ball 5 times a game is ok with him and us. Maybe he’ll learn to be aggressive one of these games. Benji wants me to tell his Grandma’s that he can run super fast, He’s not scared ever. He can kick the ball tons of times and he can remember which way to go everytime and he listens to what his dad says and he got a treat because he is super good. And  I always sometimes my mom takes me to where Icecream is and I get icecream because I kicked it tons of times, even faster than all.

    Game Over! Who brought the treats?

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    And what is a post without a Cali picture. She is a real crawler now. She finally recognizes that knees are a lot faster than her stomach.

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    Categories: Benji

    the good and the bad

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    Ben and I had some sad news last week and I decided that it would be ok to post it now. I use this blog as one of my journals and last Thursday was a sad day but it was one that we will remember. We lost our baby last Thursday, we had just told family and a few friends that we were expecting our fourth. We were excited. Benji was blessing it in our prayers. I was exhausted. We were gearing up for the craziness of a 16 month old and a new baby all at once. Just throwing around some baby names. Packer wants a brother. Benji wants a Sister. And then in a flash it was all over. I miscarried. I cried all night. Ben comforted me all night and day. The Dr. confirmed our fears and now it is done. It’s a weird thing to lose a baby before you ever have it or see it. I know that I can’t see the whole picture so I trust that Heavenly Father does and he has our best interest in mind as we learn and grow in this life. I don’t know the technicalities of the body and the spirit and if that miscarried baby will be a part of our life or not. I am sad to think of what might have been and how that little one would have been a part of our family but I feel comfort and peace after this trial.

    Categories: Ben, Jana

    Spent my Day in the Garage!

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    Today I am cleaning the garage. It has accumulated much junk over the summer and Ben hasn’t been able to park in the garage for 2 weeks now so it was time to get it under control. I was putting a few things in the rafters and Packer says, “Be careful Mom. Watch it up there.” What a sweet guy. I think he is enjoying being the big kid while Benji is at school.

    For the weekend I got to go to San Diego for Linda’s memorial. It was neat to be there, to remember all she did in this life, to see the family that she raised, taught and loved, To hear the amazing stories of her life and to just be in her home with her things and surrounded by everything Linda. It was a beautiful memorial. I’m grateful I got to be there. She will be missed by many. Another friend of mine lost her Mother In Law this month and my uncle Claire passed away also. Things like this always make you stop and look at life and reevaluate what is most important. It makes you look at your own life and get things back on track.

    Yesterday we went to Carls Jr because I had free kids meals for the boys. After playing in the play place Benji came out and told me that the girl in there called him a liar. “Did you lie to her?” I asked. “No. Why did that girl call me a liar? Did she think my name is liar?” Then after some thought he continued with, “That’s not a cute name. Noone’s name is liar. Why did she call me liar?”   This is my child. He wants to understand everything. Our days are still filled with WHYs.

    Now Ben is having Scouts downstairs.He offered prizes to anyone that can beat my Mrs. Pacman score on our computer arcade! I will extend that challenge to any Pacman fans out there!! Packer and I are watching “Little People” for the umpteenth time. Cali has a cold and is maybe going to bed early tonight (fingers crossed). Benji is being one of the big kids with the scouts. And I have basketball tonight, just a pick up game at 9. My knee has been bothering me so I am anxious to run on it tonight.

    Oh Yeah – And yesterday was Dentist day for me and the boys. I remember posting and making a big deal out of Benjis first trip to the dentist. 2nd child really does get past by on a few things. Packer was awesome, the dentist really wanted to know how I prepared a 2 year old so well because he held so still and let them do everything, even flouride. I was a proud Mom and Pack was excited for a new Power Ranger toothbrush. I did remember my camera…

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    Categories: Benji, General, Jana, Packer

    9 MONTHS OLD

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    9 month stats: Cali is all over the place! She is rolling on the ground, then gets into sitting position, does some crawling, pulls herself to stading up, rolling some more, army crawling. Just going, going, going. She’s starting to get some Whisps of hair on top and her 2 little teeth are cute. She still has rubber band wrists and she weighs….?? Tomorrow we will get her 9 month bath tub picture done to match the boys.
    Sept 13  – now she can clap! it’s something new everyday.

    9 month stats: Cali is all over the place! She is rolling on the ground, then gets into sitting position, does some crawling, pulls herself to stading up, rolling some more, army crawling. Just going, going, going. She’s starting to get some Whisps of hair on top and her 2 little teeth are cute. She still has rubber band wrists and she weighs…actually I don’t know what she weighs, I’ll weigh her after her nap. She just learned how to clap on Sunday! It’s something new everyday. I found her on step number 2 today so it won’t be long till she figures those out too. We have a bathtub picture of each of our kids at 9 months so this was Cali’s 9 month photos…

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    She weighs 17 pounds at 9 months.

    Categories: Cali

    Benji’s first Day of PreSchool

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    His first day of preschool was last Wednesday and he did awesome! We did have tears. Not from the Benji, not from the mom… it was Packer, screaming because he couldn’t go to school like his brother! So cute and so sad all at once. Benji has changed his view of preschool 100% in the last month. He was excited. Sitting on the porch a half of an hour early begging to go. He did get a little timid when it was time to walk to the door and he asked me to go in with him but he went in and said goodbye and got his name tag and that was that. Aunt Shannon was here this morning so she and Benji got their first day of school pictures. She was off to BYUI and meeting all of her new roommates.

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    Benji is loving school and so am I. The other 2 are much easier to entertain and Packer is excited to play with Benji when he gets home. A grocery cart fits 2 kids a lot easier than 3 and so does my stroller. 2 is just easier than 3.

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    FORT BRAGG CALIFORNIA

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    We had an awesome Labor Day weekend camping at MacKerricher State Park. I went every year as a kid so it was nostalgic to be there and to share that with Ben and the kids. Most of my siblings and their families were also there – we ordered brown sweatshirts and had a mini reunion. And a number of families that we grew up with also came with their families so it was second generation Fort Bragg trip and it was pretty neat to be there with EVERYONE.

    Ben and the boys, back to camp after a trip to the restroom.

    Ben and the boys, back to camp after a trip to the restroom.

    On Our Way To The Beach! She loves it up there on Dads shoulders.

    On Our Way To The Beach! She loves it up there on Dads shoulders.

    Packer wasn't ready for the waves or for the COLD water!

    Packer wasn't ready for the waves or for the COLD water!

    First time at the ocean (well Benji has been but not since he was 1) they liked it from a distance.

    First time at the ocean (well Benji has been but not since he was 1) they liked it from a distance.

    I just love Cali's face in this picture!

    I just love Cali's face in this picture!

    This is SandDollar Beach - Cali was the exact wrong age for a beach day - she tried to eat sand all day.

    This is SandDollar Beach - Cali was the exact wrong age for a beach day - she tried to eat sand all day.

    Friday was beach Day. The boys played in the sand. Ben and I played football and soccer and I hit a few waves in the numbing cold water.

    Friday was beach Day. The boys played in the sand. Ben and I played football and soccer and I hit a few waves in the numbing cold water.

    Saturday = sliding on the sand/grass dunes - GO BENJI!

    Saturday = sliding on the sand/grass dunes - GO BENJI!

    Packer and Lily? or Maddy ( I still can't tell the twins apart)

    Packer and Lily? or Maddy ( I still can't tell the twins apart)

    Joel, Shan, and Kels trying to show the neices and nephews how it is done.

    Joel, Shan, and Kels trying to show the neices and nephews how it is done.

    Exploring with Uncle Michael, seals and star fish.

    Exploring with Uncle Michael, seals and star fish.

    Exploring with Grandma!

    Exploring with Grandma!

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    Packer touching a star fish at low tide!

    Packer touching a star fish at low tide!


    Benji holding a little tiny crab.

    Benji holding a little tiny crab.

    Part of the family at the tide pools, this is right near the camp and a tradition from when we were kids.

    Part of the family at the tide pools, this is right near the camp and a tradition from when we were kids.


    Cali was in heaven cause everyone that walked by would give her more food to eat.

    Cali was in heaven cause everyone that walked by would give her more food to eat.

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    messin with the squirrels at glass beach. This beach is covered in weathered and smoothed glass. We forgot our camera so I stole this pic.

    messin with the squirrels at glass beach. This beach is covered in weathered and smoothed glass. We forgot our camera so I stole this pic.

    Lots of Oroville friends and our lucky spouces :)

    Lots of Oroville friends and our lucky spouces 🙂

    Our Family

    Our Family

    Robertson Cousins

    Robertson Cousins

    Robertson Kids (Tracie is in Alaska, Brady and Sean are serving missions)

    Robertson Kids (Tracie is in Alaska, Brady and Sean are serving missions)

    Siblings and Spouces (Tara, we missed you :( )

    Siblings and Spouces (Tara, we missed you 🙁 )

    The Robertson Family

    The Robertson Family

    Sad to leave - as always the time went to fast.

    Sad to leave - as always the time went to fast.

    Categories: General, Robertson

    Cali Cut Her First Tooth

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    Just as I was getting so frustrated that the little one wouldn’t just go to sleep and stay asleep I saw a little tooth just poking through the gums. Poor little thing! And now as I write this I notice the other tooth right there next to it, so both bottom teeth are just coming in! Along with the new teeth she has decided that she can crawl on hands and knees (but only when she wants to) and she can now pull herself up to standing position and she thinks she is soo big when she does this. The funny part is watching her try to sit back down, she gets stuck in stand up position and then gets tired and doesn’t know what to do.  She can get from stomach to sitting which also makes her happy. She loves people food and her bottle. She is into electronics, like obsessed with my phone, computer, the remotes. And she loves being tickled, her laugh is super cute.

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    Benji picked our morning snack yesterday. After watching Disney Channel he came up asking if we had tomatoes and cheese and sprinkles. So we picked some tomatoes, cut them in half, then we scooped all of the guts out, put cheese in and Sprinkles on top! WOW! the boys liked them. And that is a pretty healthy snack around these parts and good use of our garden tomatoes so we were all happy.

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    Today Benji got to go to his new Pre School and meet his Teacher and see the classroom! HE WAS EXCITED! He did great. He liked his teacher. His cousin Julia is in there with him and 2 other girls from our neighborhood. I got a bunch of “I don’t want to go’s” when it was time to leave so that is a good sign. Hopefully it goes this well next Wednesday on his first day of real school.

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    Categories: Benji, Cali

    Where has my camera Gone?

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    We had a busy weekend. We usually have some time to sit and do nothing and even get a little antsy to leave the house. Not this weekend. I find that as my kids get older and I have more of them, we are seeing less of that free time. But we had fun.

    Friday

    8am make potatoes for a funeral

    9am take Than and Erica to the Airport.

    11am – get potatoes cooked and kids picked up and potatoes delivered.

    12pm try to wish my brother Kevin a happy birthday, make dinner, talk to Tracie, Get the kids settled over at their cousins

    1-5pm I worked in the yard, cleaned the patio, mowed the lawns, and started on my hot tub pad

    6pm dinner

    7pm softball game! we won!

    8:30pm Bens brothers come over to catch the Pre-season Packer game.

    Saturday

    7am Packer tapping me on my shoulder – maybe he needs his crib back!

    10:30 off to Benji’s soccer game. Right when we got there he went to the playground and knocked his tooth almost through his lip. We put ice on it and decided not to have a Dr look at it.

    11am Benji’s game. He did better than last week. If he got five kicks he got icecream so… he kicked it 6 times and looked at his dad after every kick to make sure that he was counting.

    12pm – off to get icecream! Good Job Benji.

    1pm – change diapers and reload diaper bag for Ben’s work party.

    2pm – work party in Alpine, jumpy houses, good food, free stuff = FUN.

    4pm Ben runs to leadership session of Stake Conference. I try unsuccessfully to get the kids down for naps. LaNell comes over to chill.

    5:30 Reload diaper bag – head out for our soccer game. We WON! They had a player that I really don’t like to play against. Last year he gave Ben a shiner. This year he was being his crazy self, took a few of our guys out and then when he just missed the ball and kicked me in the shin under my shin guard I had had enough. From there I had to really good assists and a goal – we won 6-2. Sorry Red Shorts-hopefully the bruise on my shin is smaller than his bruised ego!

    7pm Matt and Jamie take the kids and we run to stake Conference.

    9pm Get kids and check out the new projector set up. I’m tired. Call and chat with my brother Michael  and tell him happy birthday.

    Sunday

    7am another tap on the shoulder from Packer, Benji then tells me when it says 8 on the clock and Cali chimed in so I finally get up.

    10am Stake Conference. Good Talks. Maybe I need to try that indexng thing rather than reading all ya’lls blogs 🙂 The kids were good so we actually got to listen.

    12pm Reload diaper bag and head for Spanish Fork.

    1pm – Baby Chloe gets blessed (Ben’s cousins kid). Spend the afternoon with family and good food and fun.

    6:00 stop and see my brothers new partment. He’s single, 26. (Let me know if you have any blind date options for him).

    7:00 Johnson family night get together! My moms parents and her siblings and their kids. More food, family and fun. And for the 3rd time in one Day I was asked point blank if I am pregnant. Am I gaining weight people?? I’ve just been to 3 big free for all food functions in a row maybe that’s the problem.

    9:00pm Get into comfortable clothes and get the kids in bed cause the weekend is over!

    Weekend OVER – Now it is time for Ben to go back to work and us to get ready for our big camping trip this week. My mom always tried to get the house in order before we left on a trip and I thought it was weird because we are just going to come home and unload the van and make a big mess again BUT now I understand. So here’s to packing and getting the house in order before we leave.

    Categories: General, Jana

    random

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    We were out of milk again today so I snuck some “magic” powdered milk into Packers sippy and I even added the chocolate to disguise it. It didn’t work. Packer took one drink. Said, “This Yucky, Mom” and then continued with “uggh kkk” and abandoned the sippy which is not his style. Please never let us live on powdered milk!

    Cali prefers food over nursing (sad). She’s almost 9 months. I just got her up from her nap and tried to nurse her but she saw crackers and didn’t need me.  It’s time for me to get used to the idea of nursing her less. She’s growing up so fast.

    Benji is finally talking about preschool, he’s not in denial anymore. Today he kept asking what kind of school Pacen is in and then what is his school called. Camry was coaxing him along and I think he really is going to like it, after the first couple of times. He starts after Labor Day!

    We decided that we are getting rid of our sandbox next week because we can make better use of that area and the kids never play in it anyway… well, wouldn’t you know that Packer has been out in the sandbox everyday this week! And Benji has even joined him a few times. Of course they start using it now.

    I read a book this afternoon. I picked it up thinking, “I’m going to read this book responsibly, like a chapter a day when I need a break.” Well, my afternoon is now over and my book is also over. I’ll have to try the responsible reading another time. And I better get off the computer and return to realities before I get too far behind and have another one of THOSE DAYS.

    Categories: General, Jana