the good and the bad
Ben and I had some sad news last week and I decided that it would be ok to post it now. I use this blog as one of my journals and last Thursday was a sad day but it was one that we will remember. We lost our baby last Thursday, we had just told family and a few friends that we were expecting our fourth. We were excited. Benji was blessing it in our prayers. I was exhausted. We were gearing up for the craziness of a 16 month old and a new baby all at once. Just throwing around some baby names. Packer wants a brother. Benji wants a Sister. And then in a flash it was all over. I miscarried. I cried all night. Ben comforted me all night and day. The Dr. confirmed our fears and now it is done. It’s a weird thing to lose a baby before you ever have it or see it. I know that I can’t see the whole picture so I trust that Heavenly Father does and he has our best interest in mind as we learn and grow in this life. I don’t know the technicalities of the body and the spirit and if that miscarried baby will be a part of our life or not. I am sad to think of what might have been and how that little one would have been a part of our family but I feel comfort and peace after this trial.
oh, jana, you know i love you. What a blessing to feel that peace and comfort. It’s interesting how you can feel both sadness and peace simultaneously. But that’s how you get through those tough times. Love you.
Dustin and I contiue to keep you and Ben in our prayers. Its good to hear of your comfort! I KNOW that Heavenly Father has our CAN and DOES see the whole picture!! Love You.
You are in good company. I kinda think its a club actually. I’m so surprised how many people have this happen multiple times. I remember being really ticked actually, but I was young and am mature like that. Like “Do you want me to have a baby or what?” That happened to me before I had kids. No fun. I consider ourselves lucky if it only happens once in our life…. hopefully not to painful, just stay in bed and watch lots of movies 🙂
I am so sorry Jana. Really, so sorry. I hope that your peace will continue to sustain you. We are thinking about you.
Jana,
I am so sorry! You are strong and you will make it through. There is a greater picture that we will eventually see. We only have a small piece of this crazy puzzle and one day it will all make sense. Stay strong…always know that Heavenly Father does watch over us. He allows us to go through trails and experiences in our lives to learn from and to become stronger by going through them. We are thinking about you. Take care Tiffany (mendenhall)
Jana, I am so sorry. I understand how you feel. It can be hard to come to terms with but the peace you have found is such a blessing. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
dear sweet jana…I am sorry. I know how you feel. For me, the pain turned into extra love for Joshie. There will always be a special spot in your heart for that child. lots of love.
So sorry Jana. There’s not much to say except for I know it sucks! We lost one between Sunny and Lila and I couldn’t believe how difficult it was for me. Hope you get to feeling better soon. Take care.
Oh, Jana, how awful! We had a miscarriage before Emma and it was a horrible experience. You are planning and preparing and getting excited and then, boom, it is over. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
I’m so sorry Jana! What a wonderful perspective you have on the matter. I hope your body will recover quickly as well as your heart. Love you and know that you’re in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m so sorry Jana. I can’t imagine your loss. But I do know God has a divine design, even if we don’t always get it. God will bless you for your good attitude and endurance. Sending you my love and hugs!!!
I am so sorry Jana and Ben…May the Spirit bring peace and comfort to you in this trying time… You will be in my prayers! Lots of love to your family!
Oh, Jana I am so sorry to hear the news. But I have the feeling that that pregnancy isn’t the last for you. I’m sure there are a few more waiting anxiously to come down. love you and thinking about your!
I am so sorry. It must have been tricky to explain it all to Benji. I hope for you that this is just a one time thing.
Oh Jana, I am so sorry. I miscarried twice and it is never easy. Someday hopefully we will understand. Our thoughts are with you and your family.
I understand your loss. I miscarried too about 7 months ago. We were 3-months along, and then in an all to dramatic way it was over to soon. After having to wait 3-months to try again we are now expecting another baby in April.So far so good. I send you my love.