I’m 30! The end of an Era. I’m officially old now. Crazy thing is as most of you can attest – I don’t feel old. I still feel like a 23 year old, home from my mission and ready for real life to start. I guess it has started and it is flying by.
I took advantage of it being my day. I stayed home and did a puzzle all day! Boring? No way! I love puzzles. I started at 8 am when the boys gave it to me and I didnâ€™t finish until 5:00. Of course there were many interruptions because my children are not self sufficient but I did the bare minimum in the mom department and enjoyed my lazy day.
hard at work! erica was nice enough to document the day with this picture.
Then Ben came home and we went out to eat. My craving was for Queso at Chilis so that was dinner – Chilis appetizers and milk shakes, (I always crave milk shakes). IÂ was then BLINDFOLDED and we headed out for some fun. We ended up at CLASSIC SKATING!! I love to skate and so I was stoked. When we got there I saw my cousin skating by and then realized that the few other people there were all “MY” people, Ben rented the whole place! And all of my family(local family that is) and several friends were there to celebrate. We had the place to ourselves and we skated all night and that was definitely the best place to turn 30, because I felt 15 again.
all the cousins racing around - fun for all ages
And I do need to say that Ben was walking a very fine line. I had threatened him that there should be no party. That I do not want to be embarrassed. That the best birthday would be eating out and chillin with the family. So … he did not listen very well BUT he did not embarrass me and I had a blast so it ended up being the best party ever! Thanks everyone for coming and making it great. Lets do it again next year.
Side note to end with… I love that country song – next 30 years – “will be the best years of my life” – I am feeling that way today but unlike the song I have loved my first 30 years and am proud of eveything that has made me who I am. I have an awesome marriage. Three beautiful children. My testimony is continually growing with my love of my Savior and Heavenly Father. I cherish my childhood. I love and respect my parents and my 11 siblings. They are all amazing and I jump at every chance to be with them. I am grateful for school teachers that inspired me and church leaders that helped me along the path of youth. I acknowledge strong friendships that have kept me on the straight and narrow and made each day fun to live. My in-laws are great. I get to be a stay at home mom… I could go on and on. Point is I loved my first 30 years and I have a feeling that the next 30 are going to be pretty great too, (if not better)!
This is my shout out to Benji’s primary leaders and teachers. Sunday evening Packer was making a wish with a dandelion so Benji went down the street and found a dandelion so that he could do the same. SO he was super excited to tell me his wishes and they were:
I wish that families could be together forever.
I wished that all babies could be born. (that one was precious, he is very aware and understands what has been going on with the miscarriage.)
I wish that there was no crying.
And I wish that we could go to church every time.
He could not quit talking about primary and his teacher and his music leader and all of the stuff that he learned. He really is a sponge right now. He soaks in everything that he can. His preschool teacher also said that he is a great student. Listens, does his work, answers questions. He really is a good kid. We love him.
This is Benji’s soccer team. There are 8 kids on the Team and 4 on the field at a time.
Is Benji a head shorter than everyone else?
Here’s Benji chasing after the ball.
And here he is watching everyone else – not quite getting in there.
High 5’s from Coach Dad!!
I think he’d rather be doing this than really playing…
Packer wanted to get the cameras attention also.
Here is number 9 doing a little super hero pose before a kick off.
And Benji’s biggest kick of the game was this free kick – he got some air under the ball!
He has a smile on his face and says that he is having fun so I guess the fact the he only touches the ball 5 times a game is ok with him and us. Maybe he’ll learn to be aggressive one of these games. Benji wants me to tell his Grandma’s that he can run super fast, He’s not scared ever. He can kick the ball tons of times and he can remember which way to go everytime and he listens to what his dad says and he got a treat because he is super good. And Â I always sometimes my mom takes me to where Icecream is and I get icecream because I kicked it tons of times, even faster than all.
Game Over! Who brought the treats?
And what is a post without a Cali picture. She is a real crawler now. She finally recognizes that knees are a lot faster than her stomach.
Ben and I had some sad news last week and I decided that it would be ok to post it now. I use this blog as one of my journals and last Thursday was a sad day but it was one that we will remember. We lost our baby last Thursday, we had just told family and a few friends that we were expecting our fourth. We were excited. Benji was blessing it in our prayers. I was exhausted. We were gearing up for the craziness of a 16 month old and a new baby all at once. Just throwing around some baby names. Packer wants a brother. Benji wants a Sister. And then in a flash it was all over. I miscarried. I cried all night. Ben comforted me all night and day. The Dr. confirmed our fears and now it is done. It’s a weird thing to lose a baby before you ever have it or see it. I know that I can’t see the whole picture so I trust that Heavenly Father does and he has our best interest in mind as we learn and grow in this life. I don’t know the technicalities of the body and the spirit and if that miscarried baby will be a part of our life or not. I am sad to think of what might have been and how that little one would have been a part of our family but I feel comfort and peace after this trial.
Today I am cleaning the garage. It has accumulated much junk over the summer and Ben hasn’t been able to park in the garage for 2 weeks now so it was time to get it under control. I was putting a few things in the rafters and Packer says, “Be careful Mom. Watch it up there.” What a sweet guy. I think he is enjoying being the big kid while Benji is at school.
For the weekend I got to go to San Diego for Linda’s memorial. It was neat to be there, to remember all she did in this life, to see the family that she raised, taught and loved, To hear the amazing stories of her life and to just be in her home with her things and surrounded by everything Linda. It was a beautiful memorial. I’m grateful I got to be there. She will be missed by many. Another friend of mine lost her Mother In Law this month and my uncle Claire passed away also. Things like this always make you stop and look at life and reevaluate what is most important. It makes you look at your own life and get things back on track.
Yesterday we went to Carls Jr because I had free kids meals for the boys. After playing in the play place Benji came out and told me that the girl in there called him a liar. “Did you lie to her?” I asked. “No. Why did that girl call me a liar? Did she think my name is liar?” Then after some thought he continued with, “That’s not a cute name. Noone’s name is liar. Why did she call me liar?” Â This is my child. He wants to understand everything. Our days are still filled with WHYs.
Now Ben is having Scouts downstairs.He offered prizes to anyone that can beat my Mrs. Pacman score on our computer arcade! I will extend that challenge to any Pacman fans out there!! Packer and I are watching “Little People” for the umpteenth time. Cali has a cold and is maybe going to bed early tonight (fingers crossed). Benji is being one of the big kids with the scouts. And I have basketball tonight, just a pick up game at 9. My knee has been bothering me so I am anxious to run on it tonight.
Oh Yeah – And yesterday was Dentist day for me and the boys. I remember posting and making a big deal out of Benjis first trip to the dentist. 2nd child really does get past by on a few things. Packer was awesome, the dentist really wanted to know how I prepared a 2 year old so well because he held so still and let them do everything, even flouride. I was a proud Mom and Pack was excited for a new Power Ranger toothbrush. I did remember my camera…
His first day of preschool was last Wednesday and he did awesome! We did have tears. Not from the Benji, not from the mom… it was Packer, screaming because he couldn’t go to school like his brother! So cute and so sad all at once. Benji has changed his view of preschool 100% in the last month. He was excited. Sitting on the porch a half of an hour early begging to go. He did get a little timid when it was time to walk to the door and he asked me to go in with him but he went in and said goodbye and got his name tag and that was that. Aunt Shannon was here this morning so she and Benji got their first day of school pictures. She was off to BYUI and meeting all of her new roommates.
Benji is loving school and so am I. The other 2 are much easier to entertain and Packer is excited to play with Benji when he gets home. A grocery cart fits 2 kids a lot easier than 3 and so does my stroller. 2 is just easier than 3.
We had an awesome Labor Day weekend camping at MacKerricher State Park. I went every year as a kid so it was nostalgic to be there and to share that with Ben and the kids. Most of my siblings and their families were also there – we ordered brown sweatshirts and had a mini reunion. And a number of families that we grew up with also came with their families so it was second generation Fort Bragg trip and it was pretty neat to be there with EVERYONE.
Ben and the boys, back to camp after a trip to the restroom.
On Our Way To The Beach! She loves it up there on Dads shoulders.
Packer wasn't ready for the waves or for the COLD water!
First time at the ocean (well Benji has been but not since he was 1) they liked it from a distance.
I just love Cali's face in this picture!
This is SandDollar Beach - Cali was the exact wrong age for a beach day - she tried to eat sand all day.
Friday was beach Day. The boys played in the sand. Ben and I played football and soccer and I hit a few waves in the numbing cold water.
Saturday = sliding on the sand/grass dunes - GO BENJI!
Packer and Lily? or Maddy ( I still can't tell the twins apart)
Joel, Shan, and Kels trying to show the neices and nephews how it is done.
Exploring with Uncle Michael, seals and star fish.
Exploring with Grandma!
Packer touching a star fish at low tide!
Benji holding a little tiny crab.
Part of the family at the tide pools, this is right near the camp and a tradition from when we were kids.
Cali was in heaven cause everyone that walked by would give her more food to eat.
messin with the squirrels at glass beach. This beach is covered in weathered and smoothed glass. We forgot our camera so I stole this pic.
Lots of Oroville friends and our lucky spouces 🙂
Robertson Kids (Tracie is in Alaska, Brady and Sean are serving missions)
Siblings and Spouces (Tara, we missed you 🙁 )
The Robertson Family
Sad to leave - as always the time went to fast.
Just as I was getting so frustrated that the little one wouldn’t just go to sleep and stay asleep I saw a little tooth just poking through the gums. Poor little thing! And now as I write this I notice the other tooth right there next to it, so both bottom teeth are just coming in! Along with the new teeth she has decided that she can crawl on hands and knees (but only when she wants to) and she can now pull herself up to standing position and she thinks she is soo big when she does this. The funny part is watching her try to sit back down, she gets stuck in stand up position and then gets tired and doesn’t know what to do. Â She can get from stomach to sitting which also makes her happy. She loves people food and her bottle. She is into electronics, like obsessed with my phone, computer, the remotes. And she loves being tickled, her laugh is super cute.
Benji picked our morning snack yesterday. After watching Disney Channel he came up asking if we had tomatoes and cheese and sprinkles. So we picked some tomatoes, cut them in half, then we scooped all of the guts out, put cheese in and Sprinkles on top! WOW! the boys liked them. And that is a pretty healthy snack around these parts and good use of our garden tomatoes so we were all happy.
Today Benji got to go to his new Pre School and meet his Teacher and see the classroom! HE WAS EXCITED! He did great. He liked his teacher. His cousin Julia is in there with him and 2 other girls from our neighborhood. I got a bunch of “I don’t want to go’s” when it was time to leave so that is a good sign. Hopefully it goes this well next Wednesday on his first day of real school.